Redefining Success
This past week I have been pondering a lot about money and worth issues, and how they hinder me in starting up various things I have planned, for this site and for Play with your writing.
I realized I wouldn't have any luck with that if I didn't let go of the stupid thought that I don't have anything to offer, and that I should keep doing services for free. But I kept struggling. How much should I ask for this, how much for that, and I quite frankly drove myself crazy.
Breaking out of it, unexpectedly
Then yesterday I went to an amazing Chinese store in my neighbourhood to find a new mouse. I used a tiny travel mouse on it, and quite frankly: that one gave me cramps in the fingers.
So I got a mouse and a small notebook for daily use, and I walked up to the register. Then the man smiled and said: "Here's a gift."
It was a small heart bag, and there was something inside. When I got home I first installed my mouse, and realized I could use the box as a small display case, so that made me happy. Then I remembered the bag. I opened it, there was one item inside.
An unexpected gift
I pulled it out, and saw it was cloth. I pulled it out of the plastic bag, unfolded it and saw it was a t-shirt. Only then I saw the message printed on the front:
I sat and stared at the shirt, and all of a sudden I felt like a really big barrel of worry dropped off my shoulders. Why, you may wonder?
Success doesn't depend on how much I ponder about it, or on how much I think I am worth. If I just do it (or, in case of getting the t-shirt, buy something in a store that I need), I will have success. It's that simple.
Also, if you keep to the adage that money is energy, keeping all that energy I can share with the world locked up inside me, I don't open myself up for new streams of energy to connect with me.
So I am going to venture out into the world with what I have to offer, to give. And I know it will be a success. No matter how much I think about it.
Conquering my own thoughts, and just doing what I feel I need to do, is success. Going with the flow, and just taking what is offered to me, is success.
How do you define success?
